it's been a while.

First times are always awkward...

Even if they are not the first first times..

Look at me now, blogging for the first time in years and a day

Through lyrical expression, I may push the awkwardness away

Oh no! I am not about to turn this into a rythm

It's an old style that could limit my freedom

Let's go back to the main point of  why I am blogging

I've been through a lot, that I forgot, how good it feels

Trying to reattach to my old (younger) self

Not much has changed, though my grammar has improved

I dislike structure, and few rhymes could be used

I am not a poetess and this is not a poem

Though, anything that expresses loss and lack of prose

nowadays, it's is called poetry

No, I am not bashing modernity

I hold nothing but respect for all the people of creativity

but sometimes it gets rediculous with all these wannabe-artsy

I am really contemplating the need to increase my vocabulary 

Because word is power, word is worth

So, I am either discovering or showcasing that I am self-worthy

It is becoming a mess, I tend to edit a lot

to a point that I don't recall the original entry

I don't feel much pressure and I appreciate mediocrity 

Otherwise, I wouldn't get a thing done and my life would be empty.